Ss501′s let me be the one MV was really heartwarming. It made me realise that though they’ll be apart, it doesn’t mean the 501 spirit is lost

lots of things happened these few days, some of which maybe not so pleasant. People have changed, and I think so have I.

[; if we could turn back time. ]

You told me that I’d always have you. Now’s the time that I needed you to talk to so badly, where did you go?

[; if we could turn back time. ]

Haha eclipse was way awesomer than the othere 2 previous movies plus Jacob is hot! Don’t really especially like him but you gotta admit he’s hot

And the first time he appeared on screen, posing on the car hood in all his 8 pack, shirtless glory there was a collective swoon from the entire back row. Plus some squeals from excited china girls who wouldn’t shut the hell up throughout the rest of the movie.

And the epic line from Jacob to Edward : I’m hotter than you.

PWNED! cause he is, literally, hotter than Edward. He’s a werewolf, so his body temp is high and is definitely better looking than hairy, white R.patts. So there.

Rawr. Back to school tomorrow. Somebody give me flu or fever or something- I don’t think I’ve ever dreaded going back to school this much T.T wish me luck, I don’t think I’ll get through this week very intact. Physically and maybe emotionally. I seem to have alot on my mind these days and sometimes I think that I think to much about how I shouldn’t be thinking too much.

(now that didn’t make sense.)

Nevermind then. Forget it.

It’s the start of a brand new week, make the most of it Rachel!

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Hurr.I am hugely irritated today. With Manu groups of people.

Irritated with people who scream for world cup. Like every time when I’m about to fall asleep I’ll be rudely awakened by their screams. I don’t get the whole point of soccer, anyway. Comeon, it’s grown men chasing after a puny ball on a big patch of grass. How interesting does it get.
(sometimes I watch football and all I feel is sorry for the ball.)

Irritated at children who wail piercingly in crammed MRT carriages. I cannot stress how immensely frustrating it is when you CANT MAKE IT STOP. like even shout “shutup” or something like that cause it’ll make it worse. This is why I will never have kids. They’re irritating little monsters.

Irritated at gross smelling fat men who pretend that the MRT carriage is so crowded that he’s got to cram right up to you. I was standing at the side of the MRT doors, and at yishun this fat gross smelling china guy came in and held the handlebar beside me. I ignored it until the train started moving and he started to come closer. And closer. D:< until if I stood normally my whole arm would have been squished against him. And I could. SMELL. him. It's not something that i'd want to remember but I am warning potential victims who take the mrt and stand in the corner like me. If something like this happens, get far farfarFarFarFARFARFAR away. Cause he smelled like sour sweat and body odour and toilet drain and rotten socks. And you know how sometimes you can sort of taste the smell. I gagged at it okay. GEEZ. HOW HARD IS IT TO TAKE A BATH. even getting drenched in the torrential downpours would be good, the pollution now has caused a higher frequency of acid rain and that should help to corrode away the smell. Ugh.

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______, I’ve given it lots of thought. You can’t keep relying on ______ for love. Don’t keep reading this post pretending that you don’t know it’s for you. And to the person who stalks me on facebook, this is for _______, but i think you need to know this as much as she does. Heavens, you stupid girl do you know how much you frightened me that day, with your _____ on the table and ______ everywhere. If you want me to help you you have to help yourself. You can’t keep on doing this, one day you’ll realise how stupid you are now. How do you expect others to love you and yourself to love others if you don’t even have the least bit of it for yourself?! I reckon that all of us are just a little bit broken and lonley on the inside, and it’s up to you to make the best out of it. _________, I want you to be brave enough to try doing that. For you it’s a large step but I hope you’ll manage it all by yourself, and not rely on ______ so much. Holding people away from you and denying youself love doesn’t make you stronger one bit. It just makes you hollower and weaker, if anything at all, cause you do it out of fear that if you love a person with all you heart you can’t take it if the person leaves. At the end of the day you either concentrate on what’s tearing you apart and what’s keeping you together. Concentrate of the latter. Think of the people around you. You think you are__________, but how do you know youre not worthless to someone else? We’ve been through our share of times and I want to tell you you are one of the most beautiful, funny and wonderful people I’ve met. And on account of that I want to ask you what are you doing with the person I met 4 years ago.you are not her. You are _____, _______ , and __________. And that is probably what hurts most. Remembering what you used to be. I’m not going to be there for you 24/7 and neither is ______. you have hands and legs and feet and a proper functioning brain. Use them. Get up and out of your _____ because it’s sickening to see you waste away like that. I don’t care, it’s something you have to and need to do. Move. On. Remember only the things you need to, pack the rest inside a tiny drawer and shove it all into the cranny of your head and concentrate on friends and school and perhaps dreaming. You’ve forgotten entirely what it’s like to dream altogether. The way you pretend, I know. You’re hiding everything. Even the future itself. But I want you to remember one thing. That you did love ________. Don’t ever forget what it felt like. Start by loving yourself as how you have loved ______.

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Haha night study today was quite fruitful did work and talked about … stuff with people who came it felt good to let it all out, it was beginning to get a little suffocating.

Haha going out with Vanessa and Nicole on Monday so excited! Going to watch eclipse! I really hope that its better than the past 2 movies, the past two were a little disappointing D: well. Really, I don’t know why I’m going. Definitely not for the white hairy thing called R Pattz D: Heehee Vanessa and her Jacob black

Sports day tomorrow, SIAN. T.T you know when I was a teeny kid in primary school I used to look forward to these kinds of things. And now my tai4 du4 is a one liner: this is wasting my time. Seriously, I could be doing other things like watching my new drama and fangirling and fretting about my double S. Rawr!

I just realised how worrisome it is that I’m worried about losing time that I can spend doing the adore mentioned instead of worrying about the fact that I’m losing time I can use to study. D:

Whatever.

My back aches and I’m currently feeling more like 51 than 15 D: I think I shall go lie down awhile.

I hope I’ll dream of cornpops!!

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Suddenly, I just hate feeling lonely. I hate it that I can’t tell you what I want to say because I’m so afraid that I’ll break whatever we have left. I hate it that I can’t seem to find a person to tell it to. I hate myself for being so freaking sensitive. _______, you never did give a damn, but I cried. For you. And it’s cliched but I think I understand what people say when they have to pretend it’s all right.

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haha okay hello :p

guess where i am again. haha yes slacking off in f&n again T.T yes, so i havent had much posts here since last year so I shall update on my life

1. i still have no life.

2. still a dedicated fan of SS501 (though i cant help but having side affirs with other people like taemin and OMG dongho )

3. its so hot in singapore i think i’m going to melt and there isnt going to be any left of my by the time o levels come.

4. I have decided to become a child psychologist (though im the one who needs one at the moment.)

5. i’m taking part in aftertoon AGOGO . ah, whatever the name means. it’s a talent show sort of thing.

6. my SS501 daily planner just arrived. ;D (sorry i cant help it im drooling over it ;D )

7. trying to work harrrrdddddddd (D:) for my olevels, theyre coming freakishly near.

haaaa~~~ u kiss is coming to singapore! ;D ;D haha or that’s what i’ve heard. ;D DONGHODONGHODONGHODONGHODONGHODONGHODONGHODONGHODONGHOOOO! ;D (shit,being unfaithful) ahh! cant wait to see what they’ll be doing here.! if it’s a concert i’m definitely going! ;D wonder if mummy will allow me ):

grrr.

and i’m still angry with her okay. last night i showed her hyun joong and she told me “if he’s my son in law i’ll clip up all his fringe!”

too bad mummy. he already is.

huuu. T.T despite ingesting copious amounts of coffee this morning I feel like my head is going to plop on the keyboard any moment now. maybe it’s partly because of the run this morning. urgh. speaking of the run, urgh, I STINK TO HIGH HEAVEN. i think if i died now god wouldnt take me i cause i’d stink up heaven.

OMGOMG t.t CLASS ENDING SUDDENLY. OMGOMG GTG OKAY POST LATER AFTER I HAVE BATHED

ANNEONGGGG ~~~

HAHA  HEY THERE.

OKAY MY ITOUCH IS GOING A BIT NUTS SO YEA THIS MIGHT JUST COME OUT IN ALL CAPS. AT LEAST THATS WHATS APPEARING ON MY SCREEN. T.T YES SO TRYING TO REVEVE THIS BLOG, AND WILL POST FREQUENTLY. USING MY ITOUCH. SO THAT MEANS IF THIS ALL COMES OUT IN CAPS IT WILL STAY THAYTHAT WAY  EVERY TIME I TYPE):

SO ANGRY WIH THE PEOPLE WHO MAKE MY HJ SO HURT . ):

so those who dont know,

hyunjoong just innocently popped by a party of an ex president of korea or something like that  (he seemed to be responsible for the gwangju massacre?) because it was coincidentally his sajang-nim’s birthday too, and they were going out tgt to have dinner when the sajang-nim got a call. so they popped in for a bit, and the netizens really slammed and hated him for just being there, posting critisism and all sorts of bad things.

seriously. what’s with them! >.< it’s not like HJ’s there to have some ‘let’s kill everyone ‘ propaganda and support that ex president or anything. D: and it’s not even his fault he was there.  GOSH.

these people really need to chill. he and the person they hate are two completely different people. and even if they had known HJ the slightest you’d know for sure he’s not th type to do this kind of thing.

these people who hurt others with their fingers. ):

yup ): since i’m all the way in pathetic little singapore all I can so is to hope that he won’t listen to all these kind of things these people post cause it’s not true ( therefore he should listen to me and come to singapore), and yah! lots of fans (including me) have written nice things on the doubleS site and people have been sending messages to him ;D i think we tripleS are quite sweet. every time something we’ll immediately take action.

ohnoes. since my entire post has been about HJ [!!!!!], no time to blog about my day. which, by the way , was MAD FUNNY.  ):

ahh, nevermind, picture first! ;D

yes HJ DEAR!  must keep on smiling just like that everyday! ;D you too rachel, ironically it’s you who keeps telling people to smile while you’re the one faking it.